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Sunday, August 12, 2007


now i got something to say. the blog web doesn't apply no more. why? lets exlpore that shall we.



therewasneverlove, was when i was feeling empty, totally empty like when there was no one around. now there is someone, someone who finally made a change in my life.



ask why this blog was called therewasneverlove? ever wondered? it began all like this.



some fine years ago on some fine normal day when i was pri 5. i woke up and was about to go to school. then there was stil afternoon session. then mum was at home can't rememeber why. and then witness the thing that was about to happen. that was the day dad passed away. dad has alway been my pillar of strength. everything he did was all for my best interest and i took it for granted, again and again i did the same thing. thinking that my dad would be always there for me. and then he just dissappeared. just like that with one snap of your fingers. he was no longer there. no longer there for me. so then years passed and then i realise. i don't have a single thing that belongs to my dad except that penknife. the set he gave to me. than i was sec 2, and one of my great friends left me. and then the guy appeared and mom changed. she went completely synical and hysterical. then he appeared and naturally i didn't like him. i went like this.



*he just appeared out of nowhere, mum turnned bias when he appeared, he's here to break this family when this family was already broken enough. he's trying to buy me over, i'm never going to call him dad even if it kills me.*



so there it was. and then the whole family started collapsing and i couldn't take it anymore. so i needed to let the world know what is happening and hopefully someone could save me. i couldn't do anything to prevent him and mom from getting together. so i couldn't do anythingi gave up and went back into the silence.



i had already been empty for like 3 years till that year and there they were, making me more empty. i resided into the silence, and put up a brave front infront of my friends. i cried at home when there was nobody around, missing dad and thinking why the world had to turn into this. this state of turmoil where everything was wrong.



then there was that stupid trip that interrupted my wanting of going for STEP. it was the dumb trip. but i sholdn't call it dumb. i met someone that i can finally love.



to you my love <3

i'll promise to be there for you, and that this relationship will last and that all your hopes and dreams will not shatter because of me ^^.

you're my wonderwall <3

i love you more and more each day



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