Monday, September 22, 2008
A tribue to the Cca where nobody grew up
It was his home,
a home away from home,
it wasn't school like what many people thought
but it was a room inside the school.
a special room,
where everything was a joke.
this was where he spent his happiest moments
enjoying every bit of time he spent inside
the craziness,
the madeness,
the nonsense
and the wonderful people
it was a place where he grew up
a place where he's inner child roam
a place rather where nobody grew up.
The clueless steroetyped
that the room was for guys with an influx of Y chromosomes.
but the guys inside,
were nothing like the stereotyped image
they were all proper,
straight and
pretty strong.
yes and the best part was,
some had girls.
the room was a escape route
an escape
from reality,
from the coldness of the world,
from stres
from demands
from deadlines
from wars
from disputes
that was a room, where all worries dissapeard.
the room, was unlike any other room,
the people inside were great friends,
friends you know,
that will never forget you
no matter where you go,
friends who would be there for you,
friends with hugs
that felt warmer
than a burning fire place in winter
we screwed up majorly,
as long as we're in the room,
but we had fun,
we broke rules
countless
but we had fun,
we got locked,
once
major fun!
we made a fool of ourselves in public
laughed at tiny dicks
major fun!
we performed,
cause we belonged on stage
and we had fun
we bashed for birthdays
and made a mess of walkways and clearings
major fun
we scrawled and vandalise
never got caught
and we had fun
we were nomads once
but we fought for what we thought was right
such politics
we screwed the school majorly
and we made sure our voices were heard
such politics
we did busted campaigning,
screwed them majorly
such politics
such fun.The room where the drama kids own.
drama kids rock my earmuffs off!
the room where there were no rules
no laws
no policies
just fun
nonsense
and
lots of love
Labels: splendid stuff
Friday, September 19, 2008
Insensitive
And she stared at him,
giving him the 'fuck off' look
what was his problem?
she thought to herself.
what was his issue?
so what if she was not as smart as he is,
so what if she was not in the same class as he is,
even though she achieved better grades,
so what if he learnt more things than her.
so what?
she hated him,
loathed him,
spits at him,
but she never speaks up.
they used to be friends,
he still think they are
but she knows he sucks .
She lit the lighter
and burned the picture.
Insensitive that's what he was
and she knows,
she wasn't the only one.
People used to like him,
until they knew him well,
than they shunned him avoid him.
Who asks stupid questions like "are you ok"
when the person practically doens't want to talk about it.
Who trys to be nice,
when he himself knows that
she hates him.
He thrives on people
who's brains are so called
"lousier than his"
just because he's in a better class.
She hates him
loath him
spits at him
Manipulator he was,
one who thinks he can control,
but she won't be controlled by him,
so what if her sciences knowledge was worse than his
he should have stayed back one year
and learn to be
a proper man
people who don't know him,
see him as distinguished,
gentlemanly
and rich
what a girl would want.
but no, he was uglier than all that
a wolve in sheeps clothing
that is who he is.
Every sentence he says to her
to him,
it seems like trying to start a conversation
but to her,
he was mocking her.
examples
____ is the top in level for pure sciences but he's struggling in __
you think you can meh?
Do you have science practical examinations?
You lucky you're in your class your subjects are so easy,
I think i want to take POA. Its so easy
Eh. you never go to ____ school ah?
i'm going ___ because i know i will struggle in ____
No la you're smarter than me
and when she told him, that she wanted to go to __
he started some granmother story,
which made her super pissed.
who was he to mock her?
who was he to be two faced?
Nice to girls, horrid to guys, extremely competitive,
a devil in disguise
She knows better to steer clear from him
she wanted to say fuck off in his face
but she knows that that wouldn't be wise
she wanted to punch his poorly constructed face
but she knows that he's face is too hard to be dented
she wanted to give him the cold shoulder,
but he keeps popping back
"Stop trying to use everyone bitch" she screamed at his burning face
but no response was heard.
He's a flirt, she knows
he pervs on pretty girls, she knows
he treats guys unequally,
guys were thought as just friends,
girls were thought to be much closer
for someone like him
like the paintings on a clowns face
his smile was
another lie
trying to be nice
another freak
another trash
another liar
another blind
another deaf
that was him,
with another mouth
that shoots without thinking
that was him,
and she sweared that
she,
was
going
to
prove
that
bitch
wrong
You're not my friend
i was blind to see
a friend in you before
i'm not making that mistake again
go away
and dissapear
Labels: Another day thinking
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
and everyday was another masquerade parade
She complained,
complained to sarah about the people,
about those
those who parade in a masquerade
those who bore scaly skins
those who made the world,
a colder place
and sarah understood
she knew about this long ago
that's why she avoided the paraders.
she wanted these thoughts to end
not the thoughts of hers or melissa
but the thought of those,
those people
There were no known words to sarah
to describe these people
No proper words because everything they do
would be taken to the extreme,
and all they needed would be a leader
and the rest would follow
follow suit and in the end
a word known as a 'clique'
is formed.
extremist that's what
people would call them
and it goes overboard
until the word hatred
blossoms into fruits
and the followers slowly leave them
realising they have been used
used and manipulated
people who wears masks
yes that was them
a masquerade parade
'two-faced' sarah called them
'Liars' other's called
but mainly annoying
Like puppeters,
they controled
Like clouds
they control
Like the above
they control
but their regime
would be short
sarah knew
she knew that everything
was yet another viscous cycle
unless someone breaks out
stops the cycle
and the cycle
no longer exists
another masquerade parade
another masquerade parade
another masquerade parade
another masquerade parade
everyday was another masquerade parade
another facist
another lie
another rose painted black
another pretense
another scarred face
another coating
another masquerade
another masquerade
Ok i presume that this is not really good. well my barain ain't functioning nowSo pardon the lack of deepness
Labels: Another day thinking
Thursday, September 11, 2008
The ending of another beggining
Ain't this an appropriate title no?
Exams has ended
and another one will soon began
and after that
another one will come again
and it is the end of the exams
but another examination will began
it is the ending of another beggining.
So she sat at the window ledge,
waiting,
waiting for what comes ahead
but she don't know,
she doubted,
questioned
whether she would be somebody one day,
because she knows,
where she is now,
is a place where people would grow up to be
only nothing but average,
the ending of this average period
the beggining of this average period,
she wants to break out,
but she knows she can't,
she hope she could,
she wanted to be somebody,
but she knows she can't
but can I?
she questioned herself
she stared up at the sky,
the dark clouds covering it,
it was going to rain
just like the society out there,
everything was dark,
and every day was a rainy day,
where the ray of sunlight,
is only enjoyed
by those who are not average,
the world out there is cruel
and there is no place for averages
she wanted to stop being an average
but she doesn't know whether she can
she doubted
the rain came streaking down,
splattering onto her face,
a streak of blood oozed out of her cheek,
just like society,
where she knows that an organisation is just a name
where you need to look out for yourself
and never trust anyone
or you'll be cut
cut deeply
with a gash left upon
forever to be remembered
just like the cut on her face
the cut told her
that something as innocent as a rain drop
can be deadly, vicious and unforgiving
just like society
just like society
why does a word like society exist
when what it means
was people of the highest level
society has no place for losers
but what have they changed this word into
she asked herself
she was average
she knows it
but her classmates sees her as a god
someone who could do many things
but to her, she knew that all these were nothing incredible
she was in an average class
has a average score
an average life
everything of hers was average,
nothing of hers was not average
she wanted to break out of this average
she needed to
she screamed,
but no sound was heard,
not a single sound,
because the world was cold
cold and unwarm
the people made the world cold
even though global warming is occuring
the people turn a deaf ear
to those of an average
and you would see the boot lickers
or what Sarah would like to call
"stuck ups"
licking onto those above
so as to "reserve" a seat there
the world was cold
and averages were left to suffer
a feather came falling
and landed beside her,
out of place
in the rain
just like me, she thought
she was an average
but was mixing with the aboves
all because she wanted
to get out of the average
but was it working?
she has become what people in societies would call
an outcast
she felt she doesn't belong
with her current group of friend
she knows she doesn't belong
in the class of hers
she was the odd one out
people looked at her
with one glance and they would go
weird
but she doesn't bother
about the snide remarks
she wanted to belong
belong
belong
why was she an average
an average
of avaerage proportion
she was neither pretty
nor was she a cheerleader
sarah was just an average girl
just like,
the girl next door
she was the girl next door
and boys dont go
"hey gorgeous"
nor do they go
"get lost monster"
they don't notice her
they don't know about her
she was invisible
the rain continued to pour
dissapearing behind the landscape
invisble
just like her
invisible
she was invisible
The below were seen and heard
The above influnces
but the middle
they remain anonymous
unheard
silenced she prefer to call
The middle,
they screamed
but no sound was heard
they spoke
but not a single sound
they whispered
and again nothing
nobody heard them
nobody wanted them
until when a crisis occur
do they come knocking on the door
asking for help
but when sarah needed their help
they turn away
flicking their long silky hair at her face
telling her they had no time
they were busy
but what they had said
sarah knew was true,
they had no time for her
but she had plenty of time for them
Her family was what a girl would call
average
the usual nagging
the usual scolding
the broken up family
where a stranger comes in to act as a substitute
but she knew that a sub
could never take her dad's place
she knew that she had taken her dad
for granted
her real dad
gone
she wished it wasn't true
but it was
she wanted to see him again
feel him one more time
talk to him
and feel his love
even though it was never obvious
because that was her dad
her dad that used to love her
her dad that used to walk her to school
her dad that used to sit with her
and just talk
her dad promised her things
but she knew
it would never be fulfilled now
she wanted to see him again
she needed him
she closed her eyes
and made up her mind
she was not needed
nobody needed her in the world
and she could think of all the positive effects
if she was gone
if she was gone
there would be one less person in the world,
someone better would come take her place
if she was gone
there would be on less average
and someone from the above would come take her place
if she was gone
her parents wouldn't need to waste their money on her
and the money would be used
to make her sister an above
if she was gone
there would be one less person to ignore
and one more person to be noticed
if she was gone
there would be one less person to feel the coldness
the emptiness of this world
if she was gone
she would be noticed
by her family
and society
but they would only mourn for a while
but it would be enough
if she was gone
there would be one less boy left with a broken heart
and there would be one more boy with a heart burning with passion
if she was gone
there would be one less person to teach
and one more middle will attain aboveness
if she was gone
there would be one less person eating
and one more person who stop suffering from malnutrition
if she was gone
there would be one less person to appreciate
but one more person to remember
if she was gone
there would be one less person to miss her dad
and one more person to feel his love again
if she was gone
if she was gone
if she was gone
she stood up and leap
leaped into the emptiness beneath her
leap into the unknown
knowing the world would be a better place without her
knowing the world won't be needing her
knowing that she would not be taking up space
knowing that nobody would remember for long
knowing that the sadness the people would feel when she was gone
was only temporary
and with those thoughts
she landed onto the cold ground below
without a sound from her
without a noise around her
until the silence was lifted from her
did the sound of a 'thump'
was heard
and she stayed there
motionless
eyes closed
the life sucked out of her
a gash across her cheek
and a smile across her face
smiling because she knew
that the world would be
a better place
without
sarah
Labels: Another day thinking
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Stop screwing my future greenview !
Yes today, last paper of my prelims and i'm not happy.
infact i am extremely displeased with my school!
The inefficiency of the school! greenview secondary school
Let me give you the details! (the following details are facts based and acitons happening during the time of 9.30- 11.30)
Ok firstly the seating arrangement was changed based on the different subjects we were taking. Due to this seating arrangement change , i was positioned to sit at the very back of the hall. Trusting in my teachers that they will normally colour the word on the whiteboard on the stage that indicates the time, i was prepared and ready to get a 1 for my food paper.
Yes prepared and ready
So the paper begin and normal people would scan through the instructions and every detail on the front page.
and yes that's what i did. And the board showed above through my eyes were seen like this
on the left
Add math paper
9.30-1200
(4e1-4e2)
On the right
Add math paper 9.30-11.30 ( ok this is the old syllabus)
[a line seperating this] followed by
DNT 9.30-12.00
[another line] followed by
ART 9.30-12.30
yes so that was all i could see
so a normal person's assumption would be ok DNT until 1200 means food is also until 1200 BUT NO!!! there was a lapse in the school efficiency and there was a miscommunication !!
I HAVE PROPERLY PLANNED MY TIME TO END AT 11.50 WHEN I SAW THE BOARD!!
due to this lapse of communication, i was doing my last essay question on food which was a 15 marks question!! look at the markage, 15 marks a difference of 3 grades !! By then it was 11.25 and i was happily beggining my last question.!
I QUOTE THE NEXT STATMENT IS A QUOTE!
an announcement was made at 11.25
"ok sec 5 students taking add math you have 5 more mins left*
in my brain it was like ok add math not my problem so i was doing and after that 5 mins later this was the announcemnt
it was pretty garbled so i heard something like
*4e3 4e4 food and d&t students 5na add maths students your time is up!*
and at that moment i was freaking stunned!
the board clearly wrote 9.30-12.00
and you know what i saw next this was what i saw
on the left
add math paper
9.30-12.00
(4e1-4e2)
on the right
add math paper 9.30-11.30
and a pathetic scribble which could be barely
seen from the back wrote
F&N and Dnt
(a line)
DNT 9.30-1200
ARt 9.30-12.30
AND I BECAME FREAKING ANGRY !
turns out the inefficiency was discovered MIDWAY DURING THE PAPER ITSELF!!
which normal person would waste time to look up at the board when you're busy scrawling the answers on your paper!
YES THE WORST PART WAS THE SCRIBBLING WAS ONLY SCRIBBLED AT AROUND 11++++
WHICH SCHOOL HAS THIS TYPE ON INEEFICIENCY??!!!!
and yes another thing
look at the allocation of subjects time above.
Add math on one side and the rest on the other side
WHICH SCHOOL DOES THIS TYPE OF THINGS??!?!!?!?!?!?
IT DOES NOT BALANCE OUT AND NO DONT GIVE ME THE CRAP ABOUT THE STUDENTS TAKING ADD MATH SITTING ON THE LEFT AND THEY WOULD BE LOOKING AT THE LEFT WHITEBOARD!
I'M A LEFT HANDER SO I NATURALLY LOOK TOWARDS MY LEFT AND OBVIOUSLY MY LEFT EYE VISION IS BETTER !
In a society like singapore, where half the population or more is infected with a situation known as myopia
I DON'T KNOW WHICH SCHOOL DOES NOT TAKE INTO CONSIDERATION THE PEOPLE WITH MYOPIA!
yes even in classes when you cannot see, the teachers asks you to change seat with someone at the front. Yes this is being considerate
during exams efficiency of the staff is extremely important and normally and i saw it with my own eyes during O's Mt exmination, THE WORD WRITTEN ON THE BOARD WERE SHADED TO ENSURE THE PERSON AT THE BACK CAN SEE!!!
and this is what happened today , the words were not shaded, even though they were written big! the marker ink was light so light and with the poor lighting of the hall. the words has to be read with squinting eyes!
Yes that was what was happening!
AND WHAT WAS WITH THE BOARD?? MAY I ASK THE SCHOOL?? IS IT PURE BIASNESS TOWARDS THE STUDENTS TAKING ADD MATH SUCH THAT ONE BOARD IS SPECIALLY RESERVED FOR THEIR EYES??!!!
may i ask you that a gross score of the school is determined by HOW WELL THE GRADUATING STUDENTS PERFORM ACADEMICALLY!! NOT SOLELY BASED ON THE ELITE CLASSES!
yes i admit i'm not smart not in the elite classes
BUT SINGAPORE IS A DEMOCRATIC COUNTRY AND SCHOOL SYSTEMS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO PRACTISE BIASNESS!!
and the pledge clearly states this
PLEDGE OURSELVES AS ONE UNITED PEOPLE
REGARDLESS OF RACE LANGUAGE OR RELIGION
yes that is what the pledge says look at that one united people regardless of race language or religion
REGARDLESS OF RACE LANGUAGE OR RELIGION!!
THIS MEANS EQUALITY AMONG STUDENTS AND NOBODY IS ALLOWED TO PRACTISE BIASISM!
AND YET THAT WAS WHAT THE BOARD WAS SCRAWLED WITH UNEVEN BALANCE OR RATHER BIASNESS !
oh god damn it !
WILL THE SCHOOL STOP SCREWING MY FUTURE??!?!
because of this stupid miscommunication and inefficiency, I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO GET A R5 BELOW 20 AND I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO GET THE 1 WEEK BREAK BECAUSE OF THIS
IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL JUSTICE??
IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL FAIR TREATMENT?
and the words scrawled on the wall one is PROACTIVENESS!!
CAN I ASK YOU MY DEAR SCHOOL? IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL THE PRACTISING OF PROACTIVENESS??!!
do you think it's very fun to screw a person's future??!!! can i ask you that?
IS IT BECAUSE IT WAS THE LAST DAY OF THE PRELIMS AND THE TEACHERS WERE GETTING LAZY SO THEY WOULD BE LIKE "heck it, last day no need care so much"
IS THIS WHAT A SCHOOL IS SUPPOSED TO DO?!!
ESPECIALLY DURING A MAJOR EXAMS LIKE PRELIMS WHERE STUDENTS TREAT IT AS A MEASUREMENT ON HOW WELL THEY CAN DO DURING O'S
is this what you call fair?!
dont give me that crap of the world being unfair it doesn't apply except to pessismists
I am extremely certain that this type of inefficiency would not happen during O's because if something goes wrong like this, the whole matter would be brought to MOE and so on and so on !
yes they don't want trouble,
I don't want trouble too,
but with this type of inefficiency and injustice,
i am extremely displeased??
i am certain parents would not want to send their child to a school with such
inefficient
unfair and
injust
attitude.
I am certain i hold to all sides of the arguement and anybody displeased with the way i phrased the post should come looking for me and discuss this in a civillised way.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
There is so much more to the soul than what you will ever be able to see
There is so much more to the soul
than what you will ever be able
to see
or hear
or feel
It is the secrets that we keep
that make us the monsters
that person in the mirror
the one you thought you knew
Thoughts were the building blocks of everything you know
the government were formed because of this word thoughts
the world was formed because of this word thoughts
the telephone, the computer and you
were made because of this word
thoughs
but why are thoughts now
worth nothing but a penny?
why is no one paying heed to what is going on
in ones mind
they chose to focus on those things
that were not deem to be important
if thoughts shaped the world
why is it worth only a penny?
have thoughts been disregarded?
or have we,
in fear of ourself
make our thoughts
something worthless
so as not to take heed
of the thoughts you thought
we all live in fear,
fear of
death
darkness
insects
punishment
disasters
unexplainable events
but what we fear most
is that person
in the mirror
the person you thought not to exist
but carries on living inside you
your body, a host
your soul shared
it is this person that we fear
that makes us go to extremes
we live in doubt
doubt of ourselves
our capabilities
our abilities
our purpose
our existence
we live in doubt
doubt of the people around you
those you thought to belive in
the materials in the world
the people you don't know
so we hide ourselves from who we really are
so that society will not condemn
because of this doubt
but isn't a doubt, still a thought?
doesn't everything begins with a thought?
Why is it, nobody can read anymore
nobody can see
the suffering
the hurt
the homeless
those in denial
why is it we have lost the ability to read
to read the people around you
and to feel what they are going through
the thoughts in their minds
we no longer read
we no longer listen
and we no long feel
have we become dead?
or are we who we fear most?
the thoughts
the thoughts
the thoughts
the countless thoughts
the deepest thoughts
the vast thoughts
the thoughts
the thoughts
the thoughs
-we no longer read
we no longer listen
and finally
we no longer
feel-
Labels: another day thinking deeper into my thoughts
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Bookworm !
Hello! I haven't blogged in a pretty long while.
well i've been pretty busy with my prelims half over and now being the holidays,
( HOLIDAYS WHOOOOO!!! NO MORE SCHOOL!!! WHOOO!!!) well this is the first time im actually so hyped up about the holidays.
because you see currently the school has finished the syllabus a LOOOOOOOONG LOOOOONG time ago!
and so the lessons in classes are
revision
REVISION
REVISION!!
REVISION!!!!!!
god well its actually pretty wonderful if you get to re-learn those things which you forget. but sometimes its like argh !!! i know this topic ready bla bla bla. well you know what i mean.
Wha'ts with the title? =)
well, i have completed reading 4 books in the month of august ending last friday! four freaking awesome books and i still have 2 more books to go!! =)
Yes twilight by stephenie meyer
one awesome story!
well i got these books like after my birthday but i read them like what 2 weeks later? which is like 2nd week of august =)
oh well everyone knows about this book so i shan't do any review stuff.
its basically awesome!
(zetsu bookmark!!!!)
Next in the series obviously new moon. i realised that this book is better written compared to book 1 twilight and i enjoyed it more !! yes the plot was awesome.
(Deidara bookmark!!!)
One of my favourite book in the series. well I like it much better because its so sad!! =) seriously well this book was pretty draggy at the start i took pretty long to complete this. Yes it's really awesome and i really pity Jacob black. Poor guy. sigh!!
(Sasori bookmark!!!!)
and i bet you guys will expect me the next book to be breaking dawn the fourth book that was release not so long ago. well let me tell you YOU'RE WRONG!!!
This is one awesome book!! really awesome! one of those best fiction christian books i ever read. Seriously! The books touches the soul more than the mind. This is what i called a soul book! and well i happen to chance upon this book while i was at tampines regional library! THIS IS AWESOME!!
On every side by Karen Kingsbury
seriously awesome!
anyway this book is about a guy named Jordan Riley who was hurt extremely hurt. (and by hurt i mean emotionally and mentally) Jordan riley the main characther in this book waged war against jesus and well basically thats how the story came about. A lawsuit against the town of bethany where he used to grow- up. The lawsuit regarding the statue of jesus standing in the middle of the park. and well it shows how the walls around Mr riley's heart got taken down.
Yes go hunt the book and read it. I absolutely agree with one of the critics who said he/she needs a box of tissues everytime she reads Karen Kingsbury's book.
This book really touches the soul and the heart.
Yes and i'm left with two books whooo i can't wait to get my hands on them!
the next two books
James patterson maximum ride series. (god sorry about the photo)
One awesome writer brings you the thing almost every kid ever dreamt of.
Having wings!
well this is actually the 2nd book i bought in the series considering this is the first book and i bought it second yea The irony. Well i'm done with the 1st book i bought of the maximum ride series. AND I REALLY REGRETTED BUYING THAT BOOK!!! AHHH WHY DID I NOT WAIT!!
so the 1st maximum ride book i bought was
And why i regretted buying this book was
THIS IS A CHILDREN EDITION!!! I DON'T LIKE THE COVER!!! THE ADULT COVER IS SOOOO MUCH BETTER!!
Lets take a look at the adult cover shall we!?
THIS IS THE ADULT COVER !!! OMG SO NICE !!!~~~~~
seriously this is the adult cover! its so nice! =(
seriously this is the adult cover! its so nice! =(
yea so i'm going to start devouring the 1st book of the maximum ride series like today!
ok next up the final book that i'll read
The secret by Rhonda Byrne
ok well i admit i bought this book by mistake! This book has no synopsis or anything at the back! So i was like
the secret?! eh sounds nice so i bought it. I didn't know it was a non-fiction book. However, i flipped the pages and boy this book isn't that bad compared to the other non-fiction books i have. I'm not a really big fan of non-fiction book but yes this isn't so bad! =)
Ok i bet most of you are going omg this guy has no life! no life! yea i agree too =)
the hols aren't so bad actually.
so enough of books i recently watch a movie, you know those re-runs they show on tv?
well this is one awesome show
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Ok i know you guys are going this is a kids show bla bla bla
but heck some kids show have really awesome plots and they are really meaningful.
I mean who doens't want to re-live the perfect day over and over again?
well this kid, he got his wish and he was stucked with re-living the last day of summer over and over again!
pretty awesome show
he realised that living the perfect day over and over again can be a real drag and well go watch the show to find out!
well lucky him, he got to re-live the day over and over again so he could fix the day properly!
So,
that's the interesting stuff that i've been doing the past one month, unless you count studying doing something interesting and going to school, tuition, and my daily routin! ahh!!
yes awesome i'm going to get the maximum ride series.
oh and yes
i can't wait for the power of five series by Anthony Horowitz the 4th book The necropolis to come out in bookstores!! QUICK COME OUT !!! I WANT TO READ YOU
yes anthony horowitz is a super amazing writer that makes you not want to leave the book alone seriously!
ok this is the end
goodbye
Labels: splendid stuff
