The ending of another beggining
Ain't this an appropriate title no? Exams has ended and another one will soon began and after that another one will come again and it is the end of the exams but another examination will began it is the ending of another beggining. So she sat at the window ledge, waiting, waiting for what comes ahead but she don't know, she doubted, questionedwhether she would be somebody one day, because she knows, where she is now, is a place where people would grow up to be only nothing but average, the ending of this average period the beggining of this average period, she wants to break out, but she knows she can't, she hope she could, she wanted to be somebody, but she knows she can't but can I? she questioned herself she stared up at the sky, the dark clouds covering it, it was going to rain just like the society out there, everything was dark, and every day was a rainy day, where the ray of sunlight, is only enjoyed by those who are not average, the world out there is cruel and there is no place for averages she wanted to stop being an average but she doesn't know whether she can she doubted the rain came streaking down, splattering onto her face, a streak of blood oozed out of her cheek, just like society, where she knows that an organisation is just a name where you need to look out for yourself and never trust anyone or you'll be cut cut deeply with a gash left upon forever to be rememberedjust like the cut on her face the cut told her that something as innocent as a rain dropcan be deadly, vicious and unforgiving just like society just like society why does a word like society exist when what it means was people of the highest level society has no place for losers but what have they changed this word into she asked herself she was average she knows it but her classmates sees her as a god someone who could do many things but to her, she knew that all these were nothing incredible she was in an average class has a average score an average life everything of hers was average, nothing of hers was not average she wanted to break out of this average she needed to she screamed, but no sound was heard, not a single sound, because the world was cold cold and unwarm the people made the world cold even though global warming is occuringthe people turn a deaf ear to those of an average and you would see the boot lickers or what Sarah would like to call "stuck ups" licking onto those above so as to "reserve" a seat therethe world was cold and averages were left to suffer a feather came falling and landed beside her, out of placein the rain just like me, she thought she was an average but was mixing with the aboves all because she wantedto get out of the average but was it working? she has become what people in societies would call an outcast she felt she doesn't belong with her current group of friendshe knows she doesn't belong in the class of hers she was the odd one out people looked at her with one glance and they would goweird but she doesn't bother about the snide remarks she wanted to belong belong belong why was she an average an average of avaerage proportion she was neither prettynor was she a cheerleader sarah was just an average girl just like, the girl next door she was the girl next door and boys dont go "hey gorgeous" nor do they go "get lost monster" they don't notice her they don't know about her she was invisible the rain continued to pour dissapearing behind the landscape invisble just like her invisible she was invisible The below were seen and heard The above influnces but the middle they remain anonymous unheard silenced she prefer to call The middle, they screamed but no sound was heard they spoke but not a single sound they whispered and again nothing nobody heard them nobody wanted them until when a crisis occur do they come knocking on the door asking for help but when sarah needed their help they turn away flicking their long silky hair at her face telling her they had no time they were busy but what they had said sarah knew was true, they had no time for her but she had plenty of time for them Her family was what a girl would call average the usual nagging the usual scolding the broken up family where a stranger comes in to act as a substitute but she knew that a sub could never take her dad's place she knew that she had taken her dad for granted her real dad gone she wished it wasn't true but it was she wanted to see him again feel him one more time talk to himand feel his love even though it was never obvious because that was her dad her dad that used to love her her dad that used to walk her to school her dad that used to sit with her and just talk her dad promised her things but she knew it would never be fulfilled now she wanted to see him again she needed himshe closed her eyesand made up her mind she was not needed nobody needed her in the world and she could think of all the positive effects if she was gone if she was gone there would be one less person in the world,someone better would come take her place if she was gone there would be on less average and someone from the above would come take her place if she was gone her parents wouldn't need to waste their money on her and the money would be used to make her sister an above if she was gonethere would be one less person to ignore and one more person to be noticed if she was gone there would be one less person to feel the coldness the emptiness of this world if she was gone she would be noticed by her familyand society but they would only mourn for a whilebut it would be enough if she was gone there would be one less boy left with a broken heartand there would be one more boy with a heart burning with passion if she was gone there would be one less person to teach and one more middle will attain abovenessif she was gone there would be one less person eating and one more person who stop suffering from malnutrition if she was gone there would be one less person to appreciate but one more person to remember if she was gone there would be one less person to miss her dad and one more person to feel his love again if she was gone if she was gone if she was goneshe stood up and leap leaped into the emptiness beneath her leap into the unknown knowing the world would be a better place without her knowing the world won't be needing her knowing that she would not be taking up space knowing that nobody would remember for long knowing that the sadness the people would feel when she was gone was only temporary and with those thoughts she landed onto the cold ground below without a sound from herwithout a noise around her until the silence was lifted from her did the sound of a 'thump' was heard and she stayed there motionless eyes closed the life sucked out of her a gash across her cheekand a smile across her face smiling because she knew
that the world would be
a better place
without
sarah
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