Today was a random
really random
really random day!

So basically, wayne and I only planned to go to downtown east to eat Fish& Co. express for lunch!
And turns out, we did a whole heck of a lot more things there

Firstly
wayne and I debated over whether the cashier at fish & co express was from greenview secondary school

Next
After eating
I wanted to check the prices of escape for the guild outing thingy!
So we went !
While checking, a idea popped into our heads
so both of us applied for a job at escape theme park

Something really annoying annoyed wayne and I while walking back and fourth the whole Downtown
There was this random nebo guy who kept bugging us trying to give us flyers. He's details will be kept secret becaus what was annoying was his ______ and ___

After that
I decided to go disturb Jasmine at her work place, Lucky for her, we couldn't hunt her down

On a really random note
We went to play Bowling! yes Bowling and for once! FOR ONCE !
there was no waiting list.
Being the lamers we are, we chose the lamest background for the bowling score sheet.
OUR DEAREST FAIRY TALE THEME


Yes it looked like that ! how splendidful! (please note i completely suck at bowling, guess that showed you how bored we were.)

After bowling, we saw some random couple entering the D marquee thingy ! So we followed suit and we saw a free Rehersal of some upcoming performance Yes i know we are good!!!

So we were really getting bored and it was only 2 +
thus we toured the whole down town
and we found the location in which Bedok south secondary had their prom!

After nearly dying from boredom i proposed that we go annoy Bryon and Jordan at their work place
turns out Bryon was working a different shift from Jordan so we couldn't annoy him properly!
So the only one who got the poor torment from us was Jordan poor guy=(


Bryon docking off after a hard days work at Sheng Siong Super market.


Jordan stil working at the casheir counter at Sheng Siong super market


Jordan was really annoyed so he turned away and ignored us
haha !

Yes and with all those little things done
We wasted out time from 12-nearly 4 which just perfectly cures my boredom oh and waynes too !

Labels: Random, the days im out

So he screamed
screamed
a sound
so sad
that the plants
withered and
die

No wonder
he doesn't believe
when he looks back and reads
or rather watch
the texts written
in blood
on the times
he has been let down

The smell of metal
that red goo
hardened
permanent
left
onto
that text

Where the numbers
scrawled beside the words
were never ending

ever watched those cartoons
where the kid has a uber long list for santa
Well that list is seen short
in the
red text

Maybe hes shouldn't expect
expect anything
because it always happens
and he should get use to it

they say
the third time is a charm
but did they ever hear
that
the third time
is a bane

thrice
it happened
thrice in a single day
how much
can this poor soul take
to believe
in nothing but
thin fibres
hanging
on
a thin line
of the word
faith

have faith in me
they say
but he doesn't know
anymore

maybe its better
to just
throw it all away
cast away
this
already
tattered
and torn
soul
into the sea
of nothingness

to be away
would be
better?

so he questioned

Labels: Another day thinking

The voices around me
will they just shut up
go away
leave me alone

I just want to be left alone

Maybe its the time
i do not know
but solitary existance made prolonged
might have a impact

I'm losing myself
in a sea of questions
never answered
so screw it
and buzz off

Nobody respects
the decisions i make
is everything i do wrong?
or was it just your biasedness
that made me
do what i do
today

I turned to the blade
the slick figure
small
yet deadly
like a cobra
only venomous

to ease this pain

Penicillin or none
it doesn't matter
it never works
this pain
what is it?

This word
that is etched into your head
can you get it out
because that word
does not apply for us

Don't butt in
when you shouldn't
Don't stay away
when you shouldn't

but you do
and i'm sad

Who am i
to believe in anymore
the people
with their masks
the people
who aren't
people

So scream i shall
but nobody hears this scream
the scream that is most frightening
the scream that
no one hears

We are troubled
but none of them knows
We are troubled
but we don't show it
not to you
to people
whom we cannot trust

are you empty?
cause i am
empty
are you all alone
cause i'm empty
i'm hollow

The smiles
are they lies
to put on just for show
they say you use 25 muscles when you smile
no wonder
its so difficult

I have issues
but its not your problem
you dont have to care
because the issues
came from you

You may have more sense than me
for all i care
your sense is clearly wasted
because from what i see
you're blinded

and the lion sleeps
inside
and when it wakes
i suggest you stay away
because
dinner would be ready
and the main course
would be
you
and
you

Labels: Another day thinking

The much awaited post is finally here !!
Below is a photo of the amount of pilot rexgrips is have used in the entire sec 4 year
It may not seem like a lot but trust my count them and you'll freak out !

Enjoy !!


Now this photo was taken on the last day of O's
Wayne and I went to Tampines Ikea for breakfast and lunch!
and being the usual lame ones !
we spotted some wooden figurines and know the photos you are about to see
are rater NC 16 and may not be suitable for people with childish minds

Enjoy!!

I call this the seducer !!


You may not be able to see it cause its real tiny but enlarge it man ! look at the wooden figurines legs!!!
I call this Caught red legged!


The next set of photos you are about to see is of a TV crew in GVSS, they were recording some show at our basketball court! These photos were taken during study break.


The actresses bags! please note that the main characters are girls


Such big shots! royal treatment can! They need the crew to help them hold the umbrella!


The camera crew Belongings!


Setting up!!


I dont know what this is!
wayne told me its a high up camera
I think its a microphone !


Eh this is damn style! they actually have that train track thingy for their camera like OMG!!


These blue people are the supporting actors! they are supposed to be some little kids playing basketball!
and please note that some of them are actually quite good!

The next photo you are about to see may be disturbing to some of you!
What you are about to see may shock you and make you faint!
This was taken before graduation ceremony that inbetween time slot

Now watch!

This is awesome! The guys who did it really meant it! yes this is what happens when people feel that the school isn't doing enough! that my dear readers is a burnt school uniform!

And finally prom night!
Prom night was only fun like after 9 +
maybe because i was half dead or something
I didn't had time to do my hair! i sort of went to far east before that and met my friends quite late
anyway these arent all the photos that was taken. I'm still waiting for dear stanley to come online to send me the photos in his camera

These photos consist of Muhaimin, Amirah and ME! and this is called upholding Drama!!


That idiot picked my up like i weighed like a feather serious!!
Muhaimin, Me and Amirah!!



Haha this is a real funny photo! Amirah and me were supposed to seduce the camera!
somehow her face got butchered off! haha !


Now this is the proper one!
Dam i love drama!!


I don't know Wth is that silver thingy in my mouth
No.1 I was not eating anything
No.2 I do not have lip piercing
No.3 I am not wearing lip gloss
No. 4 that is not my saliva
Therefore my only conclusion is that the silver thingy is the light reflection!


My Drama Bestie !!
Me, Amirah!


Dance floor!
Please note that the dance floor was really small!!


Dance floor again!



Don't ask



Please do not take this photo for granted
I rarely become a poser!
So yes this is my whole Prom outfit!
I am not a poser XD
I really can't believe i did that

Labels: Random, splendid stuff, the days im out

Why is everyone trying to control,
What am i suppose to believe in,
I do not know

And i've asked a thousand times
For the answers which will fill me
Never a reply
or was i just deaf

Being held against his will
is there more to this
or is there none?

I questioned
sought
but still
i am without an
answer

And people think that they know
the Real Him
but who are they to say that
if He himself
does not know
what he is

People who walk down another path
is it a crime to not take a path
that makes sense?
because everyone who goes on to that path
are forced to come back
against their own will

And i've asked a thousand times
For the answers which will fill me
Never a reply
or was i just deaf

Why do i feel the sadness
in which people feel
Why do i see into them
and see the weariness
the sadness
the haterd
in them eyes

So i asked a thousand times
Over and Over again
but what am i doing
is it working at all?

Is all this a fallacy

Will someone answer me
because none of their answers
ever make sense
are we to believe in something
only by what we call faith

And again
i've asked a thousand times
For the answers which will fill me
Never a reply
or was i just deaf

again
over and over again
but never a reply
Not a reply
or was i just deaf
(deaf)
(deaf)

I tried to throw away
the life i left behind
but in the end
i walked back into it

If this is the life that i need
to be able to survive
in the once thought
square
planet

I'd rather not live it

Maybe it's time
that i left
away
to another place
somewhere
where i can find
peace

So
I asked a thousand times
For the answer which will fill me
Never a reply
or was i just deaf

For i leap
into the air
embraced by its arms
falling
free
into nothingness
never coming back
or was i just deaf

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Labels: Random

Labels: the days im out

She shouted
in a place where voices
were pre recorded

because

She couldn't shout
in a place where voices
were spoken from lips

because

of you
the one who made her life miserable
where everything she did
was never enough
everythign she did for you
you couldn't see

because

you've changed
no longer the person
you were once
no longer the one
who taught the right values
and no longer the one
who followed what
you taught

because

you're blinded
by the one word
in which you missed
by the man
who came in

because

you were lonely
and she understood
what you needed
she closed one eye
and the horror began

because

you thought that everything
he did was right
and everything he did
was worth following

because

you were once the one
making the decisions
you needed a break
from making these decisions
and have your desires
fulfilled

because

you were lonely
and she knew
that;s why she kept silent
throughout
and no matter how she didn't want it to happen
she knew
her thoughts were nothing
compare to the majority
and that it was redundant

because

she knew
whatever she did
was never enough
whatever she did not do
was always seemed
as something
grave

because

you were stressed
she knew
but she wondered
does that give permission
to blame someone
for a crime
that she didn't commit
does that mean
that whatever you've taught
no longer has to be followed
and what happen to
living by example

because

she was innocent
you blamed her
and you started questioning
about the two words
known as family communication
she knew someone
known as ____
but that someone
is not you

because

you've started forgetting
how to communicate
and you didn't realised it
for you saw your age
as someone who wouldn't
make trivial mistakes
like forgetting
how to communicate
and when you made a mistake
instead of saying the word
in which you STRESS so much
to be heard from her
you just kept silent
or go with a word O
if not you go back to pointing out
what she blamed the innocent for
and that you were not in the wrong

because

SHE DOESN'T KNOW WHO THE BLOODY HELL YOU ARE ANYMORE
SHE KNEW YOU FOR A VERY LONG TIME
AND THAT COMING FROM HER
MEANS YOU BETTER LOOK AT WHAT IS GOING ON

Labels: Another day thinking

I just read someone's blog
and now
im sad

I havent seen you in 5 years i really miss you.
I read elsewhere
and i cried
because it reminded me of you.

Will you be at the observation deck, looking down here
looking at the words that are being typed onto the screen now.

Things have changed a lot
Everyone's changed
nobody's the same anymore

I'm sorry
for all the times i shouted
for all the times i made you feel inferior
for all the times i took you for granted.

I miss your cooking
I miss your silence
I miss your rough hands
I miss making leaflets with you
I miss going down to the park
just to talk to you
I miss going swimming with you
I miss watching you play computer games

Everyday i walk to school from the bus stop
There would be this Dad and his son
the dad would walk his son all the way to the school gate before going to work
I dont know who the son is
But i do know
his dad loves him very much

You did that too
you waited with me for the school bus every single day
and sometimes you would wait for me to come home
but i didn't appreciate
didn't care

I wish i could get into your head
and knew what you were thinking
because the times i spent with you
were really short

I rememeber you took me fishing once
your favourite activity
and we carried the fish all the way home
only the two of us

I'm older now
but
I wish i could go fishing with you again
I wish i could watch television with you again
or even go down to the park
just to talk

You tried your best in connecting
but i was the one who wasn't connecting

Why did you smoke?
could you tell me why?
even though you did it secretly
and i didn't find out until it was too late
Why had you do it ?

I regret now
never praying for you
maybe its because of me
that you left
because i didn't do anything
but just sit at the sidelines
and look

I miss your lame jokes
they were lame
but they were funny
and sometimes i would take
ages to figure it out

I wish i could know how you feel
during the times when you needed to see me
talk to me most
i was never there

I wish i could feel the pain in you
because you were a strong man
and never showed the pain
behind your gritted teeth

I wish i could have spent more time with you
when you were too sick to go out
I wish i could have stayed once in a while
with you

I wish I wasn't so useless and pathetic
unable to do anything
but just look and stare
at you suffering

How are you doing?
where ever you are
can you listen to my thoughts
can you see into me
can you hear my screams

I don't know
but i hope you can.

and i wish i could be you for one day
so that i can appreciate you more
but now i guess
it is too late

time cannot be reversed
it can only go forward

I wished i didn't go to school on that day
I wished i went to the hospital with mum.
I wasn't beside you when you left
I wasn't there
I wish I was
to be with you on the day you left

Why did i make myself believe
that everything was going to be ok
the day you left
why did i go to school
one day wouldn't hurt
i wasn't there when you left
I wish i were

Now everytime i see
kids with their dads
Dads who work to support the family
Dads who walk their son to school
Dad's who are always the one
Who gets taken for granted

I would be reminded of you
and i would
tell myself that
that would be you
if you weren't sick

Everyone told me
to prepare for the worst
that you had to go
sooner or later

The signs told me
to prepare for the worst
that you had to go
sooner or later

But i didn't want to believe
I miss you a lot
Like there's a empty spot in my heart
which can never be healed
like i can never be whole
once more

I wish you were beside me now
but you aren't

Do you miss us?
the family
your sibilings
your mum
your friends

I hope you do

I dont wan't grans to go too
she's the only one
who makes me feel
that i am with you
and i know grans love me too

Screw me
why can't i communicate properly
why can't i learn the language properly
i want to tell her how much i love her
but i dont know how

Do notes in a bottle
get to where you are
because i would do it
To talk to you again

If you were still alive
do you think you had go to
my graduation ceremony
I would love to see you there

I hope you would talk to me sometimes
I dont want to forget you
I really miss you